annoyed, and then not

Why?

• Went to see a nice nurse this morning for the removal of the wee stitches from my ‘plastic surgery’. She was surprised that I hadn’t come earlier as stitches in the face are generally removed within 5 or so days, I think she said, rather than 10 days, like mine. Reason: if not removed quickly they leave scars. As it happens, my face, the skin thereof, is prone to scarring. No wonder I am not too happy with it. Now, if the good plastic surgeon had informed me like the nurse did, I would have gone and had them removed earlier. He did tell me to have them taken out within 8 days, 10 for the ones on my body, but as he didn’t say why I couldn’t possibly do as he said. That just how I am. Now I am furious at the thought of being left with a two-stitch pirate scar on my nose instead of the barely noticeable mole that used to be there.

• Got paid, all of it went to the bank. Called them, now I owe them loads of money, as opposed to just being one payment late due to the non-paying imbecils. And I have no idea why. Will  have to talk to them but it doesn’t exactly amuse me to have to sit and speak to bank folk. Damn economic crisis. As soon as I can I need to get outta here so as to pay only a tiny fraction (as opposed to massive taxes and then some) of what my crappy government wants me to pay off the rich men’s debts. We pay their debts, taxes and interest rates are hiked up, and the rich bastards roam free. Weird rules apply to the financially high and mighty.

• Rang ex-tenant. Said I: Waiting on your phonecall regarding paying up, mister. Said he: Well, I’s just waiting on gettin’ paid! Like nothing, like he isn’t the contract dis-honouring scum that he is. Like I believe him when he says he generally gets paid on the 2nd or 3rd. He may get paid eventually, but hitherto he’s done little to render unto St. Pie the things that are St. Pie’s. Same story, over again. Oh but he’s only 5 mths late with March’s rent, and it’s crunch time financially for everyone. Nope, I won’t relent. He will pay up.

I wanna be the person who never gets annoyed. How do I do that? How, when … I don’t have stuff, like some money for food ffs, on the 1st day of the month? Splurged on a fab juicer and blender, and now: enhancing my healthy intake of every & all nutrients, postponed. Why? Don’t have food for money. Why? Bc some rich scumbags wrecked our country and economy and I am paying for it, and bc a poor scumbag refuses to pay me what he owes me, and I am paying for that, too. Oh, also: am sick (not for very much longer, I am more sick of being sick than you can imagine!), can’t work, get hardly any money to live on. Life’s shite right now. I am no impressed with it at the moment.

Oops, is it all abt stuff, bc I don’t have money? And bc I will have a scar on the tip of my nose? No, it’s bc life and the world are unfair, at times. In even greater porportions than what I wrote abt above! Haha.

• Read an article on BBC abt cancer in vegetarians, meat eaters and fish eating vegetarians. Read it. It looks good, like vegetarians don’t get much cancer at all. So, it is an obvious option to go with! But read on. The likelihood of cancer in certain body parts are higher for vegetarians than the rest. Why?

Come on world, give us a break!

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ps: if i weren’t so annoyed, and were i a grateful person, i’d be writing this post abt

• my delightful elder sister who let me stay at hers last night to do multiple loads of washing while watching some weirdo detective monk, and who’se been ringing me on and off today to check on and heighten my mood;
• my lovely younger sister who rang to assure me that all’s well and our plans for car pooling to the gym are still on the table whenever i am ready;
• my mum who rang to tell me she’d fork out for some food for me, plus a family bday bash tomorrow;
• and my friends who are cooking chicken tandoori for me right now in early celebration of tomorrow, and as a goodbye party also as one of them is going away for a little while – leaving me his car to use …

not so annoyed anymore.

infact, i’m feeling rather happy.

i thank them xxx

and for all you fellow perpetual analysts out there: happiness comes from within, obviously, not from external sources. except for nice pear cider or fresh juices, or chocolate. but that’s all ingested (?) so go figure! i am happy bc i choose to focus on the positive. having to write that is evidence enough that things are not always so. and i’m cool with that. i’m open abt my foibles. you? abt yours, i mean? :)